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For the longest time, I've been completely confounded by my Macbook's inability to use the internet. I had given up hope a long time ago. But recently, I was filled with curiosity as to why my poor Apple was struggling to get along with the internet. I found that the encryption I had been using has had disagreements with Apple products. So I turned it off and my precious Veronica is fully functional again.

In my attempts to get to know Veronica a little better I was playing around with iPhoto. My original frustration with the program was that it would copy over all the pictures that resided on my external hard drive onto Veronica's brain. It was incredibly time consuming and felt like a waste to wait. Once I learned how to turn that feature off, iPhoto became my friend.

Loading photos was a breeze and the slideshow feature is a lot of fun. When in slide show mode, the picture is zoomed in and the camera pans across the canvas. It's a small feature that makes it look professional and more interesting than a static image sitting onscreen awaiting its turn to exit the stage. My favorite part is the ability to play your own music. Granted, most of my trance music does not induce nostalgia. Fortunately, I had Carolina Liar on my playlist and it seems their purpose is to write music intended for slide shows.

It was a blast going through all my pictures. From the grad banquet to Lianne's birthday to Emily's going away party, all those moments evoked memories of joy and happiness. Which brings me to the question, why don't I have more pictures? I've done loads of stuff and gone out more often than not. I should have plenty of pictures filling up my library. But I don't.

One reason, is that I don't always have my camera with me. I'm pretty minimalistic. In the morning I grab six things before I leave, my ring, watch, wallet, keys, glasses and phone. I don't carry a murse, nor will I ever, so I don't have much room to accommodate my camera, even though I picked one of the smallest available cameras at time of purchase. Another reason is that I hate taking pictures. Most of the pictures that I have are taken by other people. I loved it when I went out, left my camera lying around and my friends would take photos for me. But that's not always the case. My last reason is that I get a lot of negative reaction when I point the camera around. When someone sees me holding up a camera they automatically raise their hands or look away. People make me feel like I'm doing this against their will, I'm forcing them to walk on broken glass. That's very discouraging. It's not like I want them to pose for me either, I prefer candid shots. But a lot of people choose to be difficult rather than just be themselves.

So, I think I'm going to try harder to capture memories. I'm going to have to ask the rest of you to help me out and let me try and hold onto the time we spend together.