As a child, I watched an awful lot of television and movies. Countless hours were spent watching people fall in love, getting together and living happily ever after. I felt as if I received a life's worth of education about love and was prepared for all the world had to throw at me.
One of the things I learned was that you shouldn't give up on love just because you're in a bleak situation. Life is full of hurdles and if you gave up at the first sign of struggle, you'll never live a happy or fulfilling life. That's why it was so easy for me to non-date a girl my friends have grown to despise for over half a year. And though it was difficult and didn't result in anything, I have no regrets since I lived by my convictions.
What if the situation isn't just bleak? What if I look down the road and I see nothing but a dead end and heartbreak for everyone involved? My heart tells me to stick it out; it's how I've come to define myself. But my head tells me to give it up, there's no need for agony when there is nothing to gain. Which path do I take? Which one is the right one? Is there even a right one?
Is this what happens when you grow older? Not only do you realize that the world around you is not as you thought it was, you're not the person you thought you once were either. Do you find yourself standing in front of a mirror asking, "Who are you?" too?
Have you ever thought, "Why are others able to see me, yet I can't see myself without a reflection?" I've had this thought for as long as I can remember.
ReplyDeleteThe "Who are you?" question is what drove me to create personal websites. :)
No one exerts effort for nothing. You must think there is *something* to gain, even if you don't know what it'll be yet.
@Mythi: Awesome comment about the reflection. I would have never thought of that. :)
ReplyDelete@Andy: I would keep persisting. Maybe take a break from Edmonton and go backpacking overseas? Pick a place where it's likely you can interact with the other backpackers. Impromptu tour groups and backpacker lounges seem to be great way to meet other people. The one time I went around the world, I had trouble because I don't drink, don't party, and was very shy. I still ended up dancing with Irish girls and touring an Edinburgh museum with an American. I'm pretty sure you can do better. :)
Take your quest for love to Korea.
ReplyDeleteEnter a Starcraft 2 tournament and mingle with the fans at the after party. You will be approached by your future wife for a celebrity photo ... if you dress like a pro:
http://www.mymym.com/gfx/Flash_OSL.jpg
I will sponsor you $20 if you silk screen my portrait on the back of your gaming jersey.
Go for the gold, girls love guys who show talent. And, if you win the tournament I'm sure she'll tag you in her profile pic, thus, giving you opportunity to do proper background research before diving headfirst into romance.
@Jason: Would the girls take Andy having your portrait on his back the wrong way? Otherwise, great plan for meeting gamer chicks!
ReplyDeleteAnd Peter's approach is also great for meeting chicks who love to travel or hang out with tourists!
@Mythi: I only got what you were saying now. That's a pretty deep thought. Yeah, I believe one of the ways to remedy that is having a personal site like a blog. Write down a thought and after some time passes, you can reflect upon yourself. Too bad it's not real time. ;)
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