As you might have heard, Edmonton had a intense storm last night. In fact, across the street from the Baccarat Casino, where I was volunteering, part of the CN Tower fell down. In addition, parts of Edmonton had lost power due to trees falling over and taking out power lines.
One of those areas was the part of the city between Whyte Avenue and the river. After I crossed the low level bridge at 2:30 A.M. I realized that the only source of light was behind me from across the river. Because Scona Road is mostly an uphill and windy road, I couldn't see the lights from beyond Whyte Ave. All of a sudden, my range of vision was limited by the range of my head lights.
It is an eerie sensation driving in complete darkness. I have driven down these roads dozens of times before. In fact, I can recall an entire ride down Scona Road from memory at any moment. But once you're in the dark, you're not entirely sure of yourself anymore. You hope what you know is true and isn't a fault in your mind. As your headlights reveal the next inch in your journey, you take a sigh of relief that it's not something cataclysmic.
Oddly, I feel that's the same way my life is going. There's a lot I can see but there's a even more I can't see. People don't wear their hearts on their sleeves for me to read. Most people don't like to show others that they're upset or sad, whether they like someone or hate them, whether they're confused or lost.
The darkness from people's emotions is difficult for me to live in. You can reach out but you never know what you're going to touch. I don't want to anger people or make them uncomfortable but without knowing what they're thinking, I find that the safest action is inaction and end up doing nothing. But doing nothing makes me feel weak.
I realize that living in darkness is simply a part of life. However, as much of a reality it is, it's incredibly frustrating and I can't help but eagerly await the breaking of dawn.
I work in CN Tower. The rubble is cleared. There's a chunk of roof looking like it could fall at any second onto cars exiting from the Car Park ramp so that areas all taped off... I have no Idea how cars are getting out of the car park today. They're going OUT the IN-hole I guess.
ReplyDeleteMy power went out at 10pm on Sat. I was having a bible study. Kenny and Denise and Jammie were over. I lit some candles for light and then Kenny and Denise started making out becuase the romantic power of the candles were overpowering. j/k.
Gumball sized hail pelted the house for a few minutes but luckily Kenny's car was not trashed because his car was under a tree and NOT under the tree that fell over! Luckily noone parked there.
For some reason Jamie decided to park down a block even though there was lots of space to park under the tree that was going to fall over. I thought she was lost at first but now I know that it was her spidey senses leading her away from danger. Soo lucky!
When everyone left it was still early (11pm) but I couldn't run the computer and I didn't want to struggle reading under a flashlight so I gave up and went to bed. The power came back on w/ the sun at 7am. I got up eager to scrape paint off my garage door which is one of those chores that I find strangely satisfying.